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Monday, March 26, 2012

Moderation (or "I think I'm trying too hard")

So I went to the mall this morning, and apparently I got there about 20 minutes too early. So I took Crazy C and NKOTB for a stroll around the mall.
What is it about the windows that make you want to buy everything!?! Crazy C was enamored by it all, apparently I need to get me kids out more often LOL.

Anywho, as I was strolling around, a weird sensation came over me. All of a sudden, I felt like Ms. B again. The real Ms. B!! Not the Ms. B who cares what everyone thinks of her. Not the Ms. B who's trying to be "The best that she can be". The Ms. B who dresses weird, and doesn't care. The Ms. B who makes mistakes (a lot). The Ms. B who likes fashion and doing hair.

And that's who I am, for better or worse. I can't help it. THAT is who God made me to be, not a better version of myself, just....myself.

Lately I have been trying sooo hard to figure out who I am, what I should wear, how I should act. Don't get me wrong, there is nothing wrong with trying to better yourself (especially when you're doing it to please God). But in trying to better myself, I have lost myself. And that does NOT please God! He has made us all different. And that's OK!!! That's the spice of life :)

So here is a revised version of : Who I AM

I am...
a woman
a Christian
a wife
a mother (to 3 boys,and I don't have to have 19 kids and counting if I don't want to!)
a funky dresser
a klutz
a hairstylist (at heart until I finally get my license)
a sister
a daughter
an aunt
a book devourer
a writer

and, most importantly... me!


Jessica Pierce said...

I agree! you should also put that you are awesome at the end.

Kourtney Boles said...

I love this!! Good job :)

mchristianedm510 said...

Oh this makes me happy!!! Never ever ever lose sight of who you truly are!!!!! That's who I love and no one else! I miss you when you aren't you!!! The people that matter will love you for the true you, and all the others can bite my big toe!!!!!! My Ykceb is crazy, fun, a little loud, and accepts others for who they are, and you can still be a Christian!!!!

7kidsandcounting said...

I think your right, we are alot alike! I had troubles loosing myself as well. I tend to go overboard with things. God made those little differences in us all, so I think that if we love Him with all we have then we all don't have to be dressed alike or look alike to be pleasing to Him. Just my opnion. My newer found opinion. :-)

Because I said so! said...

Bravo baby sis! Here's a couple of Dr. Seuss quotes I love:

"Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind."

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”